Fifty Shades of Self Discovery

It’s been an interesting start to the year over here.

 

In fact, it’s been an ‘interesting’ few months.

 

Last year, as you might know, I built a pretty genius business model, if I do say so myself.

 

(Don’t worry, I put the trumpet down rapidly in a minute.)

 

Training practitioners in Energy Editing.  Writing a bestselling book.  Mentoring some of the practitioners.

 

Lovely stuff.

 

I moved my family into our dream home.  I even lost 40lb.

 

So it was a bit of surprise, after the high of the last training event, where I added nine new Energy Editing Professionals to my awesome team of practitioners; when I felt incredibly low.

 

Like super-fecking-miserable low.

 

I did the usual things, checked my gratitude levels, worked on my upper limits, and started mainlining Vitamin D.

 

Nothing.

 

Still felt terrible.

 

Obviously I didn’t tell anyone about it, because I’m a shiny-happy-positive person.

 

I make a lot of cash, I’m healthy, my family is happy, so I can’t have real problems.

 

I’m not entitled to have a hard time, and I don’t want to add my negativity to someone else’s vibe, so I’m not going to admit things aren’t going well in my world.

 

I retreated.

 

And not in a ‘lovely week of silence in Bali drinking green juice’ way.

 

In a hide-in-my-office-and-avoid-my-friends-way.

 

At home one Sunday, having pulled out of a weekend away with my girlfriends, and knowing I needed to get my shit together, I posted in an informal mastermind I have with four smart, sweet entrepreneurs:

 

“I’m struggling with muggling.  I don’t know what the hell my problem is.  I’ve lost my mojo and she doesn’t seem to want to come back.  And yes this is me asking for help.  Don’t tell anyone.”

 

The replies were immediate, and they all said brilliant, American things, like “I honour you for reaching out.”

 

Within 30 minutes I had calls scheduled with them all over the next few days.

 

The relief was palpable.

 

And in that relief, something ‘popped’.

 

A thought:

 

“I don’t want to do the practitioner training in March.”

 

My hilarious ego immediately replied: ‘Don’t be a fecking idiot.  You have a whole business built around this idea.  You wrote a book that tells people about what you do.  You’re making a lot of money.  Stop this nonsense immediately.”

 

And I just laughed.

 

No wonder I’d struggled to identify the problem.  I definitely was NOT looking at this as an option.  No way, José.   Not a chance, Lance.

 

If you’ve followed my work for a while, you know I like to crack on with things.

 

I make agile decisions, and I’m not afraid to pivot.

 

Within 24 hours, the next training dates had been taken off my website, and I’d told the hotel I wouldn’t need the room.

 

I had no idea what I was going to do, or if this was a permanent decision.

 

So I did some muscle testing, cleared some blocks, and got some directions:

 

There will be another book.

 

You’ll write it in the new year.

 

Something will become clear as you start writing, that will change everything.

 

Until then, you have to practise what you’re going to preach.

 

Walk what you’re going to talk about.

 

Do your own work.

 

Focus purely on your own alignment, and your own self-development.

 

Smash your own blocks, hunt down the next pieces of old baggage you’re dragging around, and get clear.

 

So that’s what I’ve been doing.

 

It’s been Fifty Shades of Self-Discovery at Lowbridge HQ.

 

Ups.  Downs.  Digging deeper than ever.

 

Getting to the core of some really old shite that I was still carrying around.

 

And then January came.

 

Time to write the book.

 

A deadline from my publisher.

 

And finally, the piece of information that changed everything.

 

I can’t tell you what it is yet, because I’m a great believer in incubating your ideas until they’re ready to hatch.

 

What I can tell you is that there’s a pivot coming.

 

A new direction for me, that I definitely couldn’t have predicted and I certainly was not equipped to deal with until now.

 

And the creation of something, that I think my peeps are going to love.

 

I believe it’s the one thing that everyone who’s ever been in one of my programmes actually wants, and I can’t wait to share it.

 

I realise I’m being a MASSIVE tease, I just wanted to update you on what’s been going on inside my skull, and let you know something is coming –very soon!

 

Now that I’m out of hibernation, I’m finding that I’m not the only one doing some serious self-evaluation.

 

So if you’re going through it too, here’s what helped me:

 

1. Confess to someone that you’re struggling – and chose that ‘someone’ wisely.

 

2. Too much TV does not count as self-care, unless it’s making you laugh.

 

3. Even if you’re a massive introvert, make sure you’ve not slipped into hermit-mode.

 

4. Accept that right now you don’t know what’s going to happen.

 

5. Commit to putting down your old baggage, and getting help if you need it.

 

I’m sending enormous ((((HUGS)))), and a promise it’s all working out, even when it doesn’t feel that way.

 

ALL the love,

 

Michelle xxx